I'm Not Gonna Do....What Everbody Thinks I'm Gonna Do...AND FLIP OUT

Incase you didn't notice from my lovely Jerry Maguire quote...I may feel a little flip out coming on. But, as I have for the past few months, I am trying to subdue that feeling of "PLEASE FIND THE SHARPEST KNIFE YOU CAN AND PRESS IT DIRECTLY INTO YOUR CAROTID ARTERY...PLEASE AND THANK YOU" with a few mantras:

• You're in Korea, of course you're stressed!
• You are not more sane upon the arrival of pms, but quite the contrary my dear Watson.
• You are not huge, everyone in Korea is just small.
• Just be lucky that your particular brand of crazy is widely accepted and often times adored (yes, I do toot my horn in my own mantras!)
• STFU nutcase!

Once I remind myself of a few key points, I feel myself settling back into a more relaxed state... Not quite homeostasis, but calmer nonetheless.

Ok, now that I got that out, on to other things. In lieu of my emotional flip out rearing its ugly head, I found myself in need of a shopping fix. Now this could have one either way because of the size situaiton; I could not found anything to buy ad blown up all of Shinae (downtown) or
I could have come hope pleased. Luckily it was the latter (dont think I want to take part in the nasty business that is the Korean Justice System). To my utter and total disbelief, I was able to buy 4 shirts, a part of legging like skinny jeans, a brown sachel purse thingy (not my style but I really dig it), a new scrap book, some pretty pens, and a sleeping mask! As you can see the trip was somewhat random and all over the place. Lara and I had a wonderful time; Lara preparing for her date, and myself refraining from murdering people. We also enjoyed a lovely burger and fries from Kraze Burger. Needless to say, it didnt quite go with my workout-eat right plan, but the first 5 days of the month are off limits for that shit!

So project "Make Yourself Happy" continues tonight and I am going to go to Skin Food and buy some new nail polish... shocking blue or gold or something... and I'm going to manicure and pedicure myself, wash my hair, facial, shave, clean my room, and listen to Man in the Mirror on repeat. Sounds good doesnt it? Anddddddddddd the best part....

Im going to be having some Muther Effin chocolate while I while I watch some kind of chick flick at the end of all of this and lets not forget the crying that HAS to happen while I'm watching the movie...AND I just figured out that the movie is going to be none other than the Wizard of Oz. All of these things make SHAINA happy so I should be 100% by tomorrow! So I leave you with this question... Is your night going to be as fun as mine lol? (That was sarcasm of course) AMERICA---F*** YEA!

Korea...Finally

I have arrived in Cheongju (actually about 2 weeks ago) and I can honestly say I am loving it here. The first day I spent here was filled with exploration as I found myself banging down the door of my American neighbor and hoping he would shed some light on this place. To my surprise (and luck) he took me on a long walk to the local Homeplus-uh (becauase Koreans put Uh at the end of everything) which is very similar to our walmart, and you know how I feel about walmart :). I was able to buy a much needed scale which was actually the first thing I wanted. I can never find myself gaining weight again, as I'm sure it would take away from my Divalicious attitude so I am working hard to maintain...but more about that later. This is how I felt I looked before I left America!!!Gorgeous, Slender, and ready to take on the world...one sexy ass outfit and pair of shoes at a time!!!! I AM WONDERDIVA!!

But this is how I feel in Korea with all these skinny ass little feet people...Like I'm just one grain of rice from dropping straight through the floors. Still rocking the same shit... not realizing.... hmmm not so Diva-esque... and suffering from the biscuit foot syndrome where my feet are too big for all of thier shoes. HUGE SIGH!!!!

Ok enough of that though... I have recently started running again and cooking instead of trying every single thing that is placed in from of me. BUT...one has to be very careful not to offend, so I am still having the entire "experience".

Back to my first day of fun... My neighbor Josh took me around and then we had the most fabulous lunch at..... ready for it....wait for it.... Burger King! Ha! It was greatness. Later on that night I went out with my internet friends Dawn and Lara for Calmgei-sa or something close to that. It was yummy... Another sad point... all the meat here is pork! Can anyone raise their hands and tell me why that's not so awesome?? Exactly... the Diva is generally pork free. Another HUG-ER SIGH (and yes I realize huger is not a word)

The next few days were filled with work and trying to get this alien registration card so that I can get phone and internet (just got the phone yesterday but still waiting on the internet). That weekend was composed of me being drunk becuase Robert could come up, and lots of Westerners trying to figure out "Who the hell is that girl in the Wonder woman costume" lol. Last week proved to be the same EXCEPT that Rob made it this weekend. It was the most lovely thing ever. Filled with laughing, shit talking, smooching, and my personal favorite...hugging (pictures coming). Next week we celebrate 3 years of this Enigma we call a relationship.... Hmmmm I do absolutely think that is the perfect word to describe us... Enigma... No idea what we will do but I'm sure, as always, It will be quite interesting and NOTHING will go according to plan... QUE STAND IN SHAINA TO DRAMATICALLY CLUTCH HER CHEST AND FAINT AT THE IDEA...

Bittersweet

So I left Phoenix on Sunday. I went to several parties and hung out with everyone including my parents and Ashleys parents. It was a fantastic time. I bid adieu to my friend Truc who does my nails and that hurt my heart. She is truly a beautiful person. I said goodbye to Chris who always waits on me at Lonestar. I said goodbye to the guy Juan who always takes care of me at AutoZone. Christina threw me the greatest party ever. Ola flew all the way here to see me. My parents came to drive back with me. And my students from last year threw me a party and so many of them surprised me. I say this to say that I truly realized how blessed I am to be able to have so many wonderful people in my life. I also thank God that I am a people person and I can love SO many people and have them love me in return. I am blessed and loved. I miss my friends who have truly become my family and its even more than I thought possible. So much of my heart is in Phoenix and will leave with my friends as they travel to their new destination. I formed the outline of the woman I am to become. The mold hasn't set but I can definitely see the shape forming. I fell in love, had my heart broken by friends, found sisters, touched the lives of children, and really learned how to make lemonade with lemons. I grew. Thank you Phoenix for nurturing me. Thank you for loving me while I stumbled and fell, and lifting me back up each time. I'll never forget you
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