|My little at home gym that means so much to me|
Running shoes, weights, jump rope, yoga mat, treadmill, and the bicycle are just a few of my newly developed relationships. Working out has become such a monumental part of my life that my body and mind feel crappy when I skip too many. I never thought I would be the person to say that I look forward to working out everyday, but it definitely is something that I can't live without, especially running. For the longest, I hated running. I felt like it was pointless (still kinda do, not going to lie) to just run for the hell of it and I didnt really understand how it was supposed to yield such great results. After a month of consistent running I find myself getting faster, better, and stronger (cue Kanye West in the mother effer!!!!)
I love the sound of my feet hitting the treadmill, and when it gets warmer, I am going to hit some trails. I love the way my body looks when I look at my reflection in the glass window (and I always look! haha). My legs look strong as hell and my overall profile keeps getting smaller and smaller. I am confident when I am on the treadmill whereas before I felt like I was flailing all over the damn place. I really am kicking ass and I am SO PROUD OF MYSELF! The biggest loser challenge started as a motivational way for me to get to my goal weight because that was my focus, but now, my goals are so varied. I want to run faster, I want to be able to get through more squats before I feel the burn. I want to kick out more and more sit ups everyday. I want some sick muscles in my arms (Michelle Obama status out here). Most importantly, I want to keep up this healthy lifestyle way beyond February. I don't feel deprived, I don't feel tired, I don't feel like I'm on a "diet" because I still have what I want. I am loving me right now. And whenever I am feeling down on myself, or lose the motivation, because lets face it, life happens, I will come back to this and remember how I have been feeling for the past two weeks.
And it makes me feel so good when my honey notices it and comments on how I good I look. He has been by my side motivating me and supporting me through all of this. I can honestly say that when it comes to being my partner through everything good and bad, he definitely took my weight struggle to heart and helped me get to where I am right now. Even when I get down on myself and start the "I'm fat" conversation lol he cheers me up. I hope he knows how much that all means to me. It def feels good when other people notice as well. Like last night one of my oldest friends (and my middle school crush lol) told me that not only am I going to be bad as hell when I get to my goal, but I'm already bad right now. Heeeeeeeeeeeey lol. Shout out to Corey. And definitely Brian, who makes me feel like one of the hottest women on the planet on a daily basis!! I am surrounded by such wonderful people. Shaina is on it! I feel it and everyone sees it, and it feels so good. 74 lbs down and 26 to go!!!